So I have been overweight for most of my adult life. When actually admit it to myself, I’ve actually been overweight for most of my life. My parents are heavyset and never really talked about food beyond trying to get me to eat up everything that was put in front of me.
I also turned to food for comfort and I still do right now. So I believe I do have emotional issues which are tied to food.
I love junk food and I also can overeat on rubbish in order to feel good. The trouble is I then feel bad about myself and it gets worse.
I think what triggered it for me was at school when somebody called me ugly and said I was fat, from that point on it was a slippery slope to where I am now emotionally. It’s amazing how things in life which you think are small can actually have huge outcomes on who you are.
On a positive note, my iMac screen repair has been finished and it’s back in my possession. It’s stupid how technology drags us down nowadays, but I feel good about having it back. I suppose it’s the way humans are with possessions, we like familiarity and we like to know we have certain things around us in order to feel secure.
I’m still on the job hunt and I’m feeling a little more positive about my friends well. My flatmate is actually really cool and its made me chill out a bit and brought our friends together as a group are little bit more over the past couple of weeks.
So I’m feeling really good about things at the moment and with a replacement screen on my iMac and a better feeling in my belly, I really do think I’m ready to move on with things a bit more. So just maybe the tone of this blog will improve in the future and I wouldn’t feel I’m dragging down the population of the world by putting this all out there. Although I have no doubt that the handful of people who read it will probably just laugh at it and move on quickly.
Right, back to what I was doing, which is having a sort out my room at the apartment, it’s a bit of a mess and as I’m also now on the boyfriend hunt it needs to be sorted just in case I get lucky.